I’m different. And I always will be.
I don’t have big breasts that bounce & jiggle. I refuse to get implants. So my flat chest will never change.
My butt will never be big, round & firm.
I’ll never be a brown skinned beauty.
I’ll never be a curvy girl. I’m small – all around. That’s my build.
I’ll never have an accent of any kind. I’m from the Midwest. I don’t even say “y’all” – that’s southern.
I’m not flirtatious. I try, but I’m terrible at it. I know this.
I’m not sexy…or sexual. I don’t make men turn their heads. I don’t know how to seduce a man. I don’t know how to be irresistible.
I don’t make your sex life exciting. I seriously don’t know how.
I’m not adventurous. I don’t take chances. I calculate every part of my day.
I hate volleyball. I always have. I always will. And I was a gymnast and I run – so I even have a different body build. I’ve always hated the sport of volleyball.
I hate poker. I don’t understand it. I don’t care to.
But I’m ok with being a flat-chested, little butted, pasty white, skinny, boring, quiet, nerdy woman.
These are things that won’t change about me. Some because I refuse to change them. Others because of genetics.
I wondered for a long time if I should try to change….get implants, try to be a sexual, flirtatious woman, be adventurous & seek out fun, or learn to play poker. But, that’s not me. I don’t want to be fake. I don’t want any one to love me for being fake. Then they don’t really know me, so they can’t really love me. I want to be loved for being me.
I will never, ever be those things.
Different things appeal to different people. That’s why God made all of us different. And for many people these things come naturally – so it’s not fake on them.
But, this is me. Plain Jane me.