Apparently I should start to write in the evenings because lately that is when something gets my head spinning.
This evening Hub came home from later than normal. In the past this would not have caused an uproar. But, today is no longer that day, ladies and gentlemen.
He walked in the door about 15 mins later than usual.
He looked at me and said “what’s wrong?”
“Where ya been?”
“I stopped at the store.” He held up the bag from the store.
“I didn’t know.”
“I didn’t either. I decided stop as I drove home.”
After a few minutes he said “do you think I’m hiding something? ”
“How would I know?”
“I didn’t do anything. ”
“I didn’t ask for paranoia to part of my daily life, but it is. And honestly I think I’m doing pretty good for only being 7 months in. What do you want from me?”
“When I come home don’t be mad like I did something wrong.”
Now, he didn’t yell. This wasn’t heated. But, obviously we are both frustrated.
Have I become an unreasonable person in all this?
And to top it off work is becoming a bit much. Some days I have looked forward to the escape from all the crap. But other days it’s a struggle to focus on my work. I love what I do, but lately I’ve really struggled to focus.
I don’t take meds. I did try after he moved out but I had an allergic reaction so the doctor took me off and I said “I’ll do this naturally, thank you very much.” But, maybe I should have tried something else. Maybe I’ve become unreasonable they would have kept me sane.