I found out last night D-day(s) was peppered with lies.
I’m not sure how I feel right now.
Why would he pepper it with lies?
Was it to protect me? If my protection had been paramount we wouldn’t have a D-day.
Was it for self preservation? Cowardice? Fear?
Was it to protect M?
I’m not even mad.
I feel like a fool. I feel used. I feel cheap.
But I’m mostly numb.
Numb is a feeling I’ve come to enjoy while it lasts.
Will this be what breaks us or will we survive this?
Only God knows.
And only time will tell.