This journal entry was actually a prayer.
You know how I’ve been feeling lately – wondering if I’m desirable, as a woman. I feel ugly, and like a cheap substitute. Maybe it’s a normal phase at this time point. But now this thing with Hub’s company moving many of the jobs from S’s area to Hub’s area – it’s a lot! Lord, I place this in Your hands. But, I beg You to please keep Hub and S completely apart. I can’t deal with them being together. Please God – keep them separated – and keep Hub where he is – that is the job the is best for our family. Maybe even move S completely. I’m sorry I’m telling You what to do. Please forgive me and do what’s best. Your will be done. In Jesus’ name. Amen